the world gets a lot bigger and scarier as time goes on.

i've never been afraid to die
not even years ago
during a lonelier day
in moments i try not to remember
between bites of dinner
that i detested.

i really hated zucchini
all seedy and chewy
soggy and bitter

anxious spoon tapping
awaiting her
i cried

just me
and she
will outline the story of life

one about zucchini
and burnt cookies
reminding me of loneliness

my original fear
a resounding quake
rattling my cerebellum

now with parmesean
i crave that bitter seedy soggy stuff
and the fears of life wax
with each rising of the moon